I'm only responsible for what I say, not for what you understand. Although as an author I am responsible for making readers understand--a reader who doesn't understand is an unhappy reader. (And there is some value to leaving some questions unanswered.
let it be.let it be. Sometimes in life I have to relearn the same thing over and over before I get it. It's time for me to let it be and move on. Dwelling does nothing but hurt. Time to focus on myself and my family.