You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you should be trying to control
Jesus loves me despite the fact that I fail Him everyday. Such a poignant truth. Stumbling over our flesh only proves we cannot do this Christian walk on our own. Thank You, God, for sending Your Son to hold me up. I cannot stand on my own.
And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. [ 1 Peter NIV ] Out of difficulties grow miracles!