I've never been called "Mommy" but being in that mum role, the rest is very true!a child born to another woman calls me mommy. the magnitude of that tragedy & the depth of that privilege are not lost on me.
So true, for all my military friends around the world. You will never be completely at home again, because part of your heart will always be elsewhere. That is the price you pay for the richness of loving and knowing people in more than one place.
You must stop punishing yourself for something you cannot change. You must forgive yourself and show and prove to everyone including yourself that you are a better person. It's the only way to be free.