We often confuse outcomes with values. Whatever you tried, congratulate yourself that you had the courage to dare greatly & put yourself out there. By all means, learn & try again differently. Do not beat yourself up. Just work out your top values. Thank you Brené Brown.
Courage, the original definition of courage, when it first came into the English language - it's from the Latin word cor, meaning heart - and the original definition was to tell the story of who you are with your whole heart.
We are so afraid of fully experiencing joy, that we 'brace ourselves' for the inevitable loss/tragedy around the corner and never allow ourselves to fully enjoy the good right now. We fool ourselves into believing we can prepare for tragedy.