The pain will change, hopefully become less raw with time and in distance allow perspective impossible now. For now, care for yourself, those around you and be as kind and patient as you can. This is the best life advice I have to give.
"I often miss this little girl. Whose dreams had no barriers, who believed in a world where anything is possible. with a heart that was full and unbroken." What would it take to bring her back, lose the barriers and lose the broken?